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Sunday, 14 December 2008

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    The Follies of the King (Plantagenet Saga)
    By Jean Plaidy aka Eleanor Hibbert
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    Been a long time coming

    I haven't written anything here like 3 months. And it's not for a lack of things to say, but because I've been busy with work and I just haven't really had the time, or the willpower, to write. But now I do.

    I've been waiting for my raise to come in at my job for a while now. I haven't been really pushing it because I've learned to live on what I make now. Just having a bit more would allow me to pad my savings account, which is like a sheet of paper right now. But whenever I ask my manager, who previously had to talk to her manager, she kept shooting down my work, and thus denying my raise. I was nice enough to continue waiting and working on improving my job performance, but I was constantly being shot down. I finally asked why and my manager told me the comments of her manager which I must say, "I'm completely and utterly unhappy with!" to say the least. My reaction was much stronger than that though.

    Let's say I was compared to an animal in a completely derogatory manner. I'm highly upset by this because this was completely unprofessional to even have that come out of her mouth. What's more is that my improved work performance isn't even being acknowledged at all! Everything about my work has been put into a negative light and, from her, I've received nothing positive or even constructive criticism. In fact she doesn't even talk to me face to face.

    My manager has called me to talk to me about it, and I must say I feel only a smidgen better because she's at least tried to understand the situation. But I'm still not happy, nor will I take it lying down. I talked to my mom about it and we've both decided, it would be best to be pissed off right now, but calm down, and talk about it tomorrow. Luckily the manager over the other is coming on Tuesday and we'll be able to talk to him about the comments, among other problems.

    Hopefully something can be done. Hopefully this will not be swept under the rug. If anyone reads this has anything like this happened to you? What did you do? What would you do?

    PS: I'm almost done with Christmas shopping. Anyone else almost there or done? Anyone still to start? I'm hoping my gifts will go over well with the people I got them for.

Tuesday, 02 September 2008

  • So I've been talking about the war with someone who doesn't agree with the war and doesn't support the troops. And that's all well and fine, but there are a few details to the conversation.

    The person isn't an American citizen, and this is, overall, an American war. We do have our allies, but for the most part it's an American thing. I don't comment on any wars or conflicts in say...Asia because I'm not a citizen, have no way to know the details and feel I can't comment because it's not a personal thing. The war in Iraq is personal for me. My best friend is a medic with two tours under his belt. I'm a daughter and granddaughter of soldiers.

    But she feels that, and this is the most recent, that any good done by the soldiers, no matter how small, cannot compare to the devastation being caused. And she's right, to a point. Sometimes small acts of kindness done by someone can mean more than large acts of evil. I've experienced it. When I was having serious trouble in school and I was hating it severely a few kind people went out of their way to make me feel good, when they didn't have to. And why should we continue to dwell on the bad when there is good?

    So what are your feelings? Should the minute good the soldiers are doing not be counted at all? To me that's a slap in the face of the soldiers who help the Iraqis when they're hurt or when they leave their families to fulfill a sense of duty. It's a slap in the face to those who truly care.

Sunday, 31 August 2008

  • What is the next "big step" in your life?

    The next big step in my life would have to be finishing college. Then after that getting a job and buying a house.  

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    I Love New York: Season Two (3pc)
    By I Love New York
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    WOW! Really!

    So I just got finished reading this article about P. Diddy or whatever his name is now and really...I don't know what to say.

    Here's the article.

    Now I have to say....really? I mean weren't you paying attention before this? All of a sudden now that it effects you you care. Suddenly because you can't fly privately you care. Suddenly because you have to sit with all the rest of us, and still not really because it's first class, you care.

    This is just some more Hollywood elite, stuck up, I can't remember when I was poor because then others might remember, bullshit.

    Now some people in Hollywood really do care about the issues, but this...why it even made news baffles me. But since it did, and I read it, I'll comment.

    He suddenly cares because he can't do what he used to. And it's not like that even a big deal. He can still eat food that costs way too much, give his kids things they seriously don't need, and do whatever it is that he does.

    But we, the common folk, have been suffering for a few years now. I mean I have to choose between eating and gas with my paltry paycheck. I live at home and I'm lucky. I don't even have kids and my car does get really good gas mileage. So to be honest I feel for those with children and have to work far from where they live. I feel for those in gas guzzlers(and can't get a new car because there's no money.) And I know it's been worse in other places, but seeing as how I'm American I'll stick with that. It's crazy that my car, which used to take $8 to fill up on E, now takes almost $25. And the gas is no better. It seems to run out quicker than when it took $8. I do even less running around town too. So I'm getting less and I'm paying more.

    So to me this is very selfish. I watched the show and I personally see him as selfish.

    All I have to say is, "No shit, Sherlock."

Wednesday, 27 August 2008

  • Currently Listening
    Gershwin: Rhapsody In Blue/An American In Paris
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    The Baby Debate

    When should a woman begin having children? What's too young and what's too old? In a perfect world who would have children and who wouldn't? Would people have to have licenses to have children or would it remain as it is now? How many is too many? How do you know when you've had enough? How do you decide if you want one, are ready to have one, or whether you should even be entertaining this idea?

    I've been thinking about talking to my boyfriend about it for a few weeks now. My clock is ticking and I know I can't listen to it anymore. I've rather had enough of it. In fact it's getting on my nerves with the two other clocks I have in my room and my constant need to always know what time it is.

    So I wonder when would it be a good time for me to have a child? Obviously I should have my own place. It doesn't have to be the house of my dreams, but not a slum. I would like to have a father who will be there. I don't need to be married to him. Marriage and the need, or want, of children never equated for me. I do not want to be the same age as my mom or cousins just now having children. I want my last one at 30. I just can't deal with my other problem that much longer. I'm afraid I'm just a wimp and can't take it.

    I think two would be enough for me. That's perfect. Have no more than you can handle and the world and amusement parks are built for four. So maybe three, just in case.

    I do know I want to adopt. As much as I want children of my own I'd be helping someone out by adopting a child. That's one more for me to love. I don't care wear from either. All children need love.

    But before all of that, plus finishing college, which can be done with children in tow so that's not like a huge problem to me for some reason, I need to speak up. If you can't speak up then well....what's the point.


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    • Name: Alex
    • Country: United States
    • State: Virginia
    • Metro: Richmond
    • Birthday: 6/19/1986
    • Gender: Female
    • Member Since: 10/21/2004

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  • I'm a 22 year old girl who's got a lot on her mind. I like cats(I have a black one), people(sometimes), sports and body modification. I have 13 piercings and three tattoos. I would like more, but the money to have them just doesn't want to stay in my black account. I'm also a tiá to a boy named Vladimir, almost 2, and a niece who's 2 weeks. I like comedies, action and horror movies. I love listening to music too. I should probably mention that I have a boyfriend, whom I love when I feel like it. I really do like him.

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